- 32 unanswered txt msgs, 6 unanswered calls, 3 VMs totaling over 7 mins, showing up @ my house, you even emailed my MOTHER. What up w/ that? #
- I better not be sitting in traffic tomorrow at 8:20PM. #
- "All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become." ~Buddha (via @tinybuddha) #
- I feel like it's Sunday. The Giants are really sucking. Happy Thanksgiving! #
- The NY Giants are terrible. What the hell? Did #27 REALLY only rush for 27 yards THE WHOLE GAME?!? I love the number and all but REALLY!?! #
- I always feel like…somebody's watching me… #
Monthly Archive for November, 2009
- 32 unanswered txt msgs, 6 unanswered calls, 3 VMs totaling over 7 mins, showing up @ my house, you even emailed my MOTHER. What up w/ that? #
- I better not be sitting in traffic tomorrow at 8:20PM. #
- "All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become." ~Buddha (via @tinybuddha) #
- I feel like it's Sunday. The Giants are really sucking. Happy Thanksgiving! #
- The NY Giants are terrible. What the hell? Did #27 REALLY only rush for 27 yards THE WHOLE GAME?!? I love the number and all but REALLY!?! #
- I always feel like…somebody's watching me… #
- Hoping to catch a glimpse at tonight's meteor shower, and maybe even take a picture or two… #
- Headed to Philly tomorrow for the NCTE conference. I haven't packed yet & am guessing that anything I want to bring is dirty. FML. #
- I fucking hate @perezhilton. #
- Ummm did jlo just eat it? #
- Hoping to catch a glimpse at tonight's meteor shower, and maybe even take a picture or two… #
- Headed to Philly tomorrow for the NCTE conference. I haven't packed yet & am guessing that anything I want to bring is dirty. FML. #
- I fucking hate @perezhilton. #
- Ummm did jlo just eat it? #
- Missing Planet Thailand….et al. #
- Umami. What is it? It means savory. Soy sauce ads keep mentioning it. But they said Parmesan cheese has it too. Why is it so confusing! #
- Looking for literary theme suggestions for a major graduate school project that can incorporate The Neverending Story…anyone? #
- I'm tired of hearing this little girl complain about not being able to student teach bc she failed the praxis 6 times. Idiot. #
- Dear fellow MATers: Thank you for being as punch drunk as I was in class tonight. #
- I just defriended someone on Facebook because they updated their status to: "Watching the CMAs. I heart my country music!" #
- My favorite buffalo wing place in Williamsburg, Buffalo Cantina, is being featured on Man v. Food. I MISS IT!!!! Love my old nabe…. #
- I'm soooo getting drunk after this shithole class. #
- This Jets game is giving me heartburn. #
- Tiki Barber sounds like an idiot as a guest on on Iron Chef America…just sayin' #
MSA #1 —> What the hell is an MSA!?!?
It’s like a Public Service Announcement, but it’s a Mamba Service Announcement. Slight difference but same concept. Meant to get us all on the same page. Make sure everything is clear.
There are a lot of things I will discuss on this blog. Some might be real some migbt be completely made up. The point is for you not to be able to tell which one is true or not. Kinda the point.
I will not censor this blog for the sake of others – IT’S MY BLOG. GET YOUR OWN, OR DON’T READ IT, OR WHATEVER. This is mine. MINE!
So…..stop, if you’re doing this….stop thinking I’m blogging about you. I’m not. I promise. I’m just livin’ my life. Hey-ey-ey-ey-ey-ey….!
Is this thing on?
10 weeks. 10 weeks this blog has sat dormant, only updated by Twitter to let you know what I’ve been tweeting about all week. Nine weeks into a fantasy season that I promised I would update about here; of course I haven’t. Even the amount of my tweets have diminished, half the time I’m tweeting about either not tweeting or not posting blogs. For the last 10 weeks I’ve been constantly reminded that I’ve neglected this blog, and I’ve been trying to find a reason as to why the thought of posting something new gives me an enormous amount of anxiety.
Back when I started this blog I had the highest hopes. I was going to be the next Dooce. She was the motivation behind my first post, if you’ve been following since the beginning. I remember reading about thousands of blogs that started out great, but then for one reason or another were abandoned. That wasn’t going to be me! I spent countless hours learning about SEO and CSS and setting up RSS feeds and all types of other shit that you need to know in order to have a “successful” blog. I read hundreds of blogs about blogs about other blogs, and took careful notes to make sure I had every point covered. I poured over my Google Analytics statistics to monitor my progress. I was sure that by this point I’d be making a comfortable living off my random ramblings.
Why? What did I do it all for? And what happened?
Well, simply enough: I did it to escape. I was in a very different place in my life at the time that I started this blog, and not a good, happy place. I had become someone that I hardly recognized anymore, and it had been going on for so long that I needed an outlet. I’ve been writing my whole life, and it seemed easy enough. I was searching for a community, a place where my voice could be heard, even if it was “the Internet” that rarely, if ever, engaged in conversation with me. I felt like I had a purpose, and some control – two things I was seriously lacking in my “real life.” It worked, for a while. I even participated in NaBloPoMo, remember? Then, in December – 2 posts. January? 5. February? ONE. And it’s pretty much followed that course since.
So what happened?
I don’t need that escape anymore. I am in the best, most untroubled place in my life that I have ever been. I’ve gotten control back. I am myself again. I know where I am going and I know what I want. I’m empowered. I am HAPPY. I haven’t thought about CSS, or RSS, or SEO, of even Dooce in months. I don’t need to anymore. I have other outlets, other communities. I’ve been having fun, and living life in the “real world.” SO MUCH FUN.
So, does that mean I stop blogging for good? Is this my last post ever? Certainly not. But my purpose has changed. I no longer care if I’ve tagged posts correctly, or if my blog is aesthetically pleasing to my readers, or if I even have readers at all. This blog is for ME, for my own mind-wanderings and ideas and loves and hates and experiences. Whether I post everyday, or every three months, it doesn’t matter. No more pressure. That in itself is liberating.
Anyway, enough of my rambling. I guess I just wanted to say that whether you continue to check in with me or you decide to move on to greener pastures, I thank you for helping me through one of the toughest times in my life. Stay classy.
Oh, and as far as this year’s fantasy season goes, I’m currently 4-5 in 10th place. EPIC FAIL.
- I skipped class tonight to watch Game 6. GO YANKEES!!!! Let's bring it home at home!! I love fall baseball, but apparently I hate blogging. #
- Breaking up is hard to do… #
- Loving the way my man @brandonjacobs is looking so far…#27!!!!!!!!!!! #
- I'm giving myself a manicure while simultaneously screaming at the Giants game….perfect picture of two sides of my personality at work. #
- I couldn't be getting more crushed in fantasy right now than if I had just put every Bye player in and crossed my fingers. Grrrr. #
- I've been away. I am coming back – w/ a different purpose, a different goal. I am happy. I am coming back to make sure I remember it all… #
